OOC: I… am probably going to delete…
Everyone… I am so, so very sorry that I have not been on this blog as much as I should. My muse seemed to have killed itself over the past few weeks and I cant get a grasp back on it. This has happened with all of my other blogs as well and it’s really put me into a rut. I don’t know… I feel like I don’t deserve all of the beautiful people that I roleplay with on here… I don’t deserve to have this character. And this is not me speaking with upset feelings right now. I feel like I’m gasping, trying to keep my head above water with all of the blogs that I have and it’s already caused me to delete a few.
I plan to take a break from all of my other roleplay blogs besides
Taylor, (and I can also be found on my
personal) but I don’t know how long it will last. I need to relax a little from the stress. And I know it shouldn’t be stressful, but I feel like I’m disappointing everyone by not roleplaying and it’s making me seriously sad. I don’t know… I promise myself that I’m going to go on my blogs one day and roleplay like crazy to catch up, but the moment I log onto Oogie, Emily, Salvatore… I just kind of blink at the screen like I don’t know what to do. I feel like sobbing. I… I cant… I just…
*Takes deep breath*
I feel like all of you are just looking at me expectantly like “What the hell is wrong with you?” And… I just cant take the fact that I feel like a complete and utter disappointment. So… I can only think of one thing… Deleting.
I love you all so much and I welcome each and every one of you to come and chitchat with me on my personal.
I am so close to crying right now it’s pathetic. Not because I’ll miss Emily (I dunno, I kind of lost all feelings for her) but because I’m going to miss Victor and everyone else I rp with on here.
I cant… I…
I love you guys…
~Emily Van Dort-mun
P.S. ……………. Please don’t hate me name twin…
victor-van-dort:
“Come here.” Victor picked her up bridal style, careful maneuvering her through their half of the mansion and to their bedroom. Once there he sat her down on the bed, removed part of the covers so she could get in and laid her down on their bed. “Better?” he asked, sitting next to her.
Emily relaxed immediately, being in a bed that she could trust, and nodded. “Yes, much. Thank you, Victor… I-I was so scared. B-but I knew you would be here for me.” She placed her hand on his cheek, smiling warmly. “I love you.”
OOC: ADVERTIZING!
fourthmewmew:
You know what we would love?
MORE PEOPLE!
A Keiichiro would be amazing!
We already got someone asking for Ryou!
WE ARE NOT A GROUP, JUST INDEPENDENT ROLE PLAYERS!
Also, A Taruto and Pai would be amazing!
AND THE REST OF THE MEW MEW TEAM!
AND THE REST OF THE SAINT ROSE CRUSADERS!
Come on people!!!
victor-van-dort:
Victor sighed with relief, he had not just been worried about Emily, he had been worried about their child too. “Are you still tired? Do you need to go to bed?” Victor doubted she had gotten much sleep while she was with… them.
Emily nodded, swaying a little. His doubts were right, she hadn’t slept more than a wink during the time she was with them. She wanted to stay as alert as she could. “I… Please. Sleep… Sleep is what I need right now. I-I’m so exhausted.”
victor-van-dort:
“And do you think… they’re okay?” Victor asked, rubbing her stomach slowly so she would know who Victor was referring to. Victor hadn’t seen Emily in awhile, something could have happened to the baby while she was gone.
Emily was confused at first, but when he rubbed her stomach she smiled warmly. “Oh, no. They’re just fine, I promise you. I took good care of them while I was gone, making sure not to over stress. The trek home was a bit exhausting, but I just know deep down they’re okay.”
victor-van-dort:
“Don’t worry, Emily.” Victor said as he placed his hands on either side of her face. “I won’t let them take you again. I promise.” There was no way Victor would let her be alone after what had happened to her. No, Victor didn’t care what it took, he would make sure Emily remained safe. “Did they do anything to you?” he asked suddenly.
Emily nodded at his promise, staring into his eyes with wide brown ones, and huffed a little. “No, they didn’t do anything to me except feed me. I… It was weird.” She shivered a little at the thought. The situation had been the oddest one she had ever been in and she did not wish to revisit it again.
